Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Changes - Not In The Cards

As I sit here writing this blog, I just get more and more down about life. I just found out the puppy that I have being trying to adopt has gotten a home somewhere else. I'm just heart broken about this. I honestly thought at this time next week I'd be training a new member of my family. I swear to adopt this little gal, I had to go through just about as much as adopting a child. I had to fill out applications, do interviews and have references, but I guess in the end she wasn't meant to be with me, but I'm sure she has found a great home.

Another thing I've been trying to do is get back to work at my old job with eBay. I honestly don't know what I need to do to get someone to call me back. I've left several messages, sent out emails and have even sent my resume in several times just so that someone would call me back. Guess that's not going to happen either. I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to be stuck at the Post Office for a long time, but of course not as a full time employee, just as a temporary employee like I have been for 4 1/2 years. ARGGHHH!

I swear I look back on my life and I had it so much better when I was 23 years old. I had everything going for me. I look at myself now and I'm not improving I'm reverting back to the days of high school where I had a crap job and trying to figure out what to do at school. Most people my age in life have something to wake up to, either a great career, family or something that requires them to be there each day. Oh well maybe next year I'll have something that requires me to wake up to, until then, I'll just go to the post office and review movies.


Debra said...

It sounds like you're about where I am with frustration. I mean, it's pretty sad when I don't have a job, and the last one I had (and every one I've had in Washington, actually) was crap and more of a joke than jobs I had back in 2002.

Celeste Weekes said...

don't be down on yourself. You've accomplished more in your life than many! Not to mention... you (more than anyone) knows how to make life worthwhile. I don't know anyone who loves, cares and has fun more than you! I love yoU! Hang in there!
P.S. If you are really craving someone to wake up to, you can borrow my kids. But when they wake up they need a potty visit, then breakfast, then teeth brushed and clothes put on!!!! ;D

orangemily said...

Sorry Nicole! Things will get better.

Emily and Dustin said...

I've had a lot of feelings like yours lately. I can relate. :)

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